First of all, certain pharmacological drugs carry “black box†warningson them saying that side effects can be suicidal ideation. If feeling this contact a doctor immediately.
Secondly, Plato once said “the unexamined life is not worth livingâ€. At my lowest points in my life, on several occasions I’ve thought about ending my life. First time was a teenager. I just white knuckled it and got down on my knees praying for something, someone to help me get through this moment. Somehow I always knew if I could just get past that moment, it would fade. Sometimes it happened in hours , sometimes days on one occasion several months.
I volunteered at a suicide prevention hotline. That also helped me. It also grounded me because one persons pain might not be another persons.
Right now I’m going though a bad patch which will in time get far worse. My family won’t support me on it so I just know no matter how blue I will get, and any thoughts like this I just have to pray and hope they will pass, even though I know I’ll be very broken inside. But broken can be fixed and time will dull the pain eventually.