No, Cyber, that isn't it. It was from 20 years ago. Or 15. Or 6. Depends on how you look at it, I guess. I'll tell you if you want to. But then you all may never want to talk to me again.
@bigheadfred Fred,I ain't no shrink and I don't even play one on teebee,but MY best advice to you is to keep that stuff to yourself until you have reached the point where you can take a dispassionate view of it,and learn how to forgive yourself. This is something you obviously haven't done yet or you wouldn't be worried about people no longer talking to you if you reveal it.
Learn to accept that we all go through stages in life,and that as we mature and go about the business of living,we become different people than we used to be. Usually BETTER people than we used to be. I don't know you but I SUSPECT you are now a better or more moral man in some big respects than you were earlier. What you still need to learn and accept is that the man who did things you now find shameful no longer exists. The proof of this is that you now feel shamed by what THAT "you" did or said. You have grown since then and morphed into the man you are today. The man you are today recognizes his earlier mistakes,and has learned from them.
None of us are one-dimensional people even though we generally show only the public side of our personalities to the public. Like all humans,you have flaws and you have made mistakes. Accept your mistakes,recognize them for the mistakes they were,and also accept the fact they are in the past and you are no longer the same man you were when you made them.
Once you learn to forgive your former self,your life can become whole again. The past is in the past. It's done and there is nothing you can do or say to change it. Let it stay there where it belongs and work for a healthy and happy future.
My 2 cents,and worth every penny you paid for it.
