I meant it like you meant it to ignore it. {mod snip}
When you push it, my resolve stiffens and narrows.
BTW, I've never been "normal" in any routine conventional sense--since the day I was cut out of mother's womb.
My PhD class in Clinical Psychology was full of super bright "birds of rare plumage" . . . many of whom had been heads of their own counseling centers with their master's degrees before entering our PhD program. There were ~40 in our class. At a graduation party, someone openly remarked to me . . .
'Ya know, {Quix} we are all VERY DIFFERENT, ATYPICAL sorts of individuals. But YOU are the MOST atypical, DIFFERENT of all of us.'
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Tell me about it.
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Being Quix has sure been a ride but it's rarely been an easy one.
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FR's Brilliant, perceptive and discerning Joya, my housemate of 8+ years . . . tends to still say that many just can't measure up sufficiently to "pass the 'Quix test.'" That they are just not up to the challenge.
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I'm not always 100% precisely sure what she means by that every time she says it. But as near as I understand it, she means that my personality is different enough from average, many folks just cannot or will not deal with it constructively--and so to feel safe, have to distance themselves or trash me in one or more ways.
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She recognizes that's a function of their very serious degrees of Attachment Disorder. People with minimal Attachment Disorder; who have a good sense of self-worth, confidence; a significant degree of humility and empathy; who like creativity, unique perspectives etc. virtually never have problems relating constructively with me. They "pass the 'Quix test' easily."
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I just know that many have tended to flunk that test over my 70 years regardless of how kindly, generously, graciously etc. I endeavored to relate to them. At this point--it will have to be their problem.
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