Just curious - what is so bad about being single?
To tell the truth, there's nothing inherently bad about being single—other than what I mentioned before about not being able to have a family and the whole issue of economics of scale; a couple sharing an apartment can split the rent check, for example—but it's more personal. In case you couldn't tell, I've struggled in this department for as long as I've been interested in girls (and this goes back to middle school). This is kind of embarrassing, but I've never even been on a date, let alone had a real girlfriend. It's more this nagging sense of inferiority and embarrassment, this feeling like I haven't been able to achieve something I should have achieved by now.
I was always a pretty high achiever as a kid; not valedictorian or anything like that, but when I put effort into something I wanted, I almost always succeeded, or at least came close. So this, coupled with my choice of career not working out and my frustrations trying to get a driver's license (it took me eight years and four tries, and I only got that earlier this year), is kind of overwhelming to me.
That, and as you can tell, I get emotional sometimes. I've listened to a lot of music, and perhaps that gave me unrealistic expectations that the man eventually finds someone who is able to put up with his ups and downs. That, and I've always been somewhat introverted; I've always kind of wanted that kind of close personal bond with one person where I could just be myself.
