'It is true that anything could happen, but let's face it, at my age I don't have much to lose.'
I understand him. I have been saying this same thing since I hit 40. I figured 40 is enough. Two generations ago, the average age of death was around 35. So, I figured I won.
But, I have to say, in reality, I do feel like a ghost. I do not know why I am still alive. I should have been dead by now, a hundred times over. I do feel that every day I live is somehow stolen. I feel that I should not be here. I'm am not supposed to be here. But, whatever.
The only thing is that I do believe in God, in a pretty big way. And I feel that I am here because I am supposed to be here. I don't know?
I will do my time. But I have no fear of death. Just moving on to the next level. I have done things worse than that. Death, in some ways, is a comforting thought.
I understand him completely.